White Roses

The summer days are ending in the valley,

And now the time has come when we must be apart

But like the rose that comes back with the springtime

You will return to bring the summer to my heart

Till the white rose blooms again

You must leave me, leave me lonely

So goodbye my love till then

Till the white rose blooms again 

(Nana  Mouskouri - White Rose of Athens)

Till the white rose blooms again, but my dear..i didn't think this rose will ever bloom again. So what am i gonna do?  Mourning you in a lifetime? Being anger to God to let us apart? Its sound so wrong, my dear. And we both agree that love should be right. 

We're tried and tried but things remain the same. Could it be, this is the time when we have to accept that..the rose will never bloom again? At least not in this lifetime. 

I love you, my dear. 

I always do. 

Things will never be the same again, the fact that there's no you probably change everything in me. But one thing im sure of, we love each other. And it have to be enough for me.

I treasure our memories from the first we met, til the last white rose and the last i love you. I wont try to forget. I just..need to accept that, God has give me 999days to spent with you. Give me a chance to feel that kind of happiness and sorrow with you. For that, I need to be more thankful.

Ah, I remember this line " Don't cry because its over, smile because it happen". Sound so wise, yet so hard to do. But i guess its right. Stop asking why and asking for more. Everything happen for a reason. Just be thankful, cha. 

My dear, even i still don't know which way to go and what to do. Letting you go is something that i need to do right now. So please be happy without me, so this hurt felt worthy. And let me beg for this one. 

I beg you, Una.