Ngepost dikala sedih itu, paling susah buat aku.
Salah milih kata dikit, pasti dikatain menye, ababil, apa lebay. But sometimes, we're lack of word and thats the only word that could explain us. Jadi istilahnya terpaksa pake. Kaya aku hari ini.
KESEPIAN.
Tuh kan..belom-belom pasti udah mikir gambaran cewe ga laku, ga bisa sosialisasi, atau cewe gatel yang pengen dibelai-belai. Honestly, i miss ur touch, i do, a bit. But thats not the main reason. I've plenty of friends here who ready to makes me smile or even laugh. But when im on my own, i come back with the feeling..lonely.
Kamu bilang ga usah mikirin ini, mood kamu lagi ga bagus. hallo? i've know it since last week. Im trying to be good to you, be someone you can hold on to. But i cant reach you. "dan tak lama lagi kamu akan terlapisi saput yang tak bisa kutembus. Hanya kamu sendirian disitu. Dan kamu tak pernah tahu itu (Dewi lestari- Curhat untuk sahabat)
Seems like all i do is..useless. I've to deal with the word "useless" and until last night, im still win. But you said.." i wish you know me at all. im in a bad. Its not what i want from you", and im totally, instanly drowning in the word "lose".
Bukan, bukan mau nyalahin kamu jahat sampe bilang gitu. Cuma, rasanya sulit buat aku telen, buat aku terima. I know, i always know im not good in conflict management. I always dont know what to do. I know you hate to ask, i do. But if you really want me, just say it. Give me some clue. It wont kill, you know..
God..why am i posting this? :(
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