i should cry. but i cant.

Beberapa hari sebelum postingan terakhir, cha udah pengen bgt nulis segimana bahagianya cha diperlakuin kaya..let say, pincess. He was so..amazing. He treated me til i felt his central universe is me. Tapi sebelum sempet cha tulis, it changed.

Now here im. Feel so lonely and tired.
I should be mad, but all i feel is worries. Takut dia lupa makan, takut dia sakit, takut dia punya masalah.

I should wait til you back. But i cant help it, being far from you, thinking what am i gonna do, who im gonna be with next to you.
I should cry, its the only way i believe could lighten this feeling. But i cant.

How hurt it is..
You know that, yeah you know that !!
Why me ?

im so tireeeeeeeeed..T_T